not moving

After dreaming of you so real, i missed you even more than words can say. Indeed today, you were on my mind again. In fact, i think you're always on my mind.

Somehow you'd find a way to appear -- some may think its scary, but i think its lovely. I guess it shows just how much i miss you...

But i have never fought -- so hard in my life -- against myself. I want to express my heart's feelings to you. I want you to know how loved you are. I wish i could do all that, and more.

Yesterday a friend told me about this song by The Script: The Man Who Can't be Moved. The title sounded so familiar at first. Then i realized, its the same video that was posted on his blog.

I would never have noticed it's meaningful lyrics if not for this friend who played it in his car.

And now that i have heard and read it over and over, i felt this song relates to me and what's been happening that past weeks. It almost moved me to tears (gosh..i cry quite easily these days.. hmm) because it sings exactly what i am going through and what i want to do.

I understand things are a mess right now. Even more in your heart. I pray each night, for you to have a clear conscience and an untroubled heart, and that things will work itself out soon. I don't want to be the cause of your stress -- but i will always be your stress reliever.

I will never get used to not having you around, so don't think i won't wait. I will be waiting for you, as i always have.. enduring each day without you, slowly and with patience, hoping for that day i can hold you hand a mean every word i say...

...






The Man Who Can't be Moved. (source)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move



not moving, for you.